ThE BeAtiTuDeS

Hmm...I am going away for a short trip of 9 days and 8 nights to Hong Kong and Guangzhou....Really had a hard time packing because I was so afraid that I bring too much over and that my baggage will be overweight..Also had to go and purchase what I lacked...in addition was told to bring more warm outfits but to me I am someone who love the cold more than the heat so I just assume that what I bring will be enough to keep me warm..Initially I just dumped everything into my luggage before I actually will start organising them...But my mum was really nice she actually helped me to pack them and squeezing things in for me...

Actually I am really looking forward for this trip for a long long time...because I seriously felt that I needed a break from everyone...heee..or mayb just an escape...But when I know that I am flying off later I kinda felt sei bu de...to think of it I have to miss two cell group and one service..and over these two weekends they are going to prepare and do a farewell video for Beverly...didn't really like to be left out of the fun...but I really wonder what Beverly have to say when she sees the video...Hmmm..I'm sure that the whole cell group will do a good job and jerel will also do a good job in piecing the individual videos into one...Also, Lijun will be able to come out with a creative photo made up of all of our photos....

Seriously, I really will miss Beverly alot when she leave E298...She really brought so much joy to my life and also always doting me by getting me stuff...She' really a blessing to me and also she had always been there for me in times of needs...Gona really miss this little angel around....

So all the more I should enjoy myself with her and her bro and friends through this trip...just hope that we will not come back and end up hating each other and not go travelling anymore..heee...

Woke up 10 plus and started puking...Stomach hurts so much...Reali dread such times...just finish eating my meal(porridge)... Gona catch some sleep soon..

2004 was really a very very bad year full of disappointments and hurts..but i believe that this year 2005 will be a great and best year for me...

Felt so down lately..so spent alot of time in the presence of God trying to draw strength from Him...as i begin to dwell in His presence, i begin to start writing songs..today is really the first day i start to write songs...n guess what at one shot i wrote 3 songs...

Your Loving Arms:
Is one that is filled with the desire to just wanting to be in His arms and gaining that comfort in Him because there was where i really can only find my greatest comfort

Being With You:
Is a song that is filled with hope...about how much i know i know that i can hope again by being with Him

Desiring Your Touch:
Is about desiring the touch from God...a sweet touch once again...because i just desire so much for a touch from Him to make myself feel better

I really hope that these songs will not be the first and the last that i have written...so far only the song Desiring Your Touch have chords but they are not well written..also i recorded Your Loving Arms with my own singing of melody but without chords..Your Loving Arms i would say it's the most complete song and it's really a cry from my heart to God.....because there is really no where i desire but to cut into His arms and gain that comfort from Him...

Lord, I want to thank you for letting me write these songs and I want to present them to you...I just want to tell you that I love you....