ThE BeAtiTuDeS

everything seems so complex
the big fight have changed us
our mindset, our emotions
brought us closer, yet further

understanding seems so far away
all that's left are misunderstanding
happiness has long been blow naway
sadness and tears are here to stay

time is running so fast
by the wink of an eye
new season will come
bringing new adaptations

busyness are carried
so often on our lips
seizing the time left
only increases the strains

the sweet and happy times
are diminishing into the air
nothing left to carry
nothing to reminisce

the least expected
became the one
who walks in
but never to stay

blown by the wind
far up into the sky
gushed by the water
far down into the ocean

do we really treasure
all that were given
no longer clear
for us to say

This is a song, tt i really like...it's by sonic edge band...manage to get my hands on it coz someone lend it to me...have been replaying it over and over again...it' reali the cry of my heart...here it goes:


Come Before:

Come before, before You now
And I lay my burdens down
Prince of Peace, Counsellor
Son of the Father I adore
I love You Lord, You're all I have
You're all I ever really want
Your face is all I seek
You put a new song in my heart
A song of praise to You, oh Lord
And I will worship all my life
Trust in the Lord
Hallelujuah

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.
My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever
- Psalms 73:25-26-

It's a New year, which will mark greater breakthrus, faith and love...:)

Now, it's time to set new goals for 2006 but before that I would like to thank God for all that He had done for me in 2005.

I remembered that i started 2005 feeling so slow in self-esteem and deeply hurt... Trying so hard to let go and forget what happened in 2004....remembered that i cried for the first few days of 2005...and as time passes by i begin to feel much better and pulled myself thru'. However, the pain still come and go within the past year...till towards the end of the year, i finally released everything...and i really thank God that He gave me the ability to forgive and love...although the friendship is no longer as closely bonded as before but yet, i know that we can joke and talk like b4....supporting and encouraging each other to grow....Thank You Lord!!

well, i was pretty lost in terms of career as well...went for interviews, get job offers but yet had to turn them down...because they required me to compromise with church...at the same time, some just ain't where i reali desire to be at..coz there's a place that i really wanted to be at..but i just didn't have the experience to make it there...but well, i finally got a job...one which i will be bonded for 3 years...don't really know if i will like this job..but then, i have a drive...tt's the love and passion for the kids...remember the times tt when i had my school experience..though i felt tt i was badly made used of..n felt so tired those weeks..but everyday when i see those kids..the tiredness seems to have pale in comparison...well, the life studying was really hectic ..but yet i've got the strength from You to overcome...You gave me the favour of man, great results n great friends...Thank You Lord!

at the same time, i've to struggle with relationships at home....but yet You were there to strengthen my emotions and comfort me so greatly...the promises in Your Word are really YES and AMEN!! You've sent great friends to walk with me thru's those days...friends whom no matter how hard i try to shaft them aside, they never gave up on me...they are really great friends who carried Your love in them....Thank You Lord!!

in addition, there were many brushes with relationships...friends n loved ones....however, You were there to be the reconcilator to piece back all the broken pieces..and bring all the relationships to greater heights....though the damage were already done but yet, i guess these relationships will strengthen as times goes by... Thank You Lord!!

Times tt i have fallen....You not only led me back to You...but You forgave me.... Thank You Lord!!! There are simply so much more that i could have thanked You for....and i'm sure You know what they are :P..because, no one understands me like You do..and many atimes, You have proven Yourself true...:)

although i did not start off 2005 well, but yet i ended it really well...and all these would not be possible without You....Thank You for being my Jehovah Jireh and for loving me thru' this one year....You'r really Faithful, even when i ain't...and You've led me thru' this 2005...helping me to finish it well....All glory goes to You....:)

Now, it's 2006!!! The old has passed..and the new has come!! And i believe strongly that this year, will be even better than 2005...I know that this year will be a year of transition as well..but i believe that you will lead me thru' juz like you led me thru before...and i really want to build myself up, to love You deeper and fear You greater each passing day...I desire more of You every single day....of course, there will be many specific things tt i wana achieve in this year but they'r going to be so long a list and personal...so it shall be in my goals card instead of here ;)

all set to begin this wonderful journey with the Lord, my greatest love always and forever!!!

Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
*Isaiah 41:10*