ThE BeAtiTuDeS

Below is a poem that Leonard sent me via msn. It really speaks and act as a double confirmation to me.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.


We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous.
Actually, who are you not to be
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the
glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence
automatically liberates others.

After reading this poem, this verse from the bible came to mind:

Arise, shine;
For your light has come!
And the glory of the LORD is risen upon you.
~Isaiah 60:1~

ever been to places where sweet memories were created?

I juz did...

though it's just only a few hours, memories were created.
it was a moment full of fun and laughter.
it was a moment where I got to see a different side of you.
it was just a simple and wonderful moment...

however, as I am there once again,
the layout of the place is already different.
also, the sweet feeling in my heart had faded away.

time can never standstill...
the same sweet and touching atmosphere will never re-enact....

physically, the place and people may be different
emotionally, the feelings may be different

but the one thing that will never change is the memory of that moment. :)

Wonder what i've been doing these days when i'm free? I've been playing with this little toy car. Heee :) Bought it last thurs when I was at Mustaffa playing with toys after my supper.

This car is of course not as cute as Weisiang's one, which I was fascinated by when he 1st brought it for service. However, I think it's pretty cool. It has headlights which his car doesn't have. Of course it really projects light when it moves. Sounds like a real car rite?? :P I like such cars, very jeep-like.

So glad that i've got this new toy to accompany me. Told him that if i've got the chance, I will want to race with his. Actually, I think mine will outrun his. However, given his skills I think I may lose. :P

I heard from my friend that they do have race tracks somewhere near Sim Lim. Maybe I will go check it out one day.:P

For the past months, i've been having serious acne outbreaks. It may have been agitated by the facial and the products. Hence, I've decided to stop going for facials. It's pretty strange seriously how I decided it's time to go to a skin dermatologist instead.

One fine day, I went to see my family doctor due to a severe throat infection. Actually there are three doctors in that particular clinic. It was so coincidental that I saw this doctor whom I usually don't get to see. He was so affected by my face that he told me that he's going to prescribe Differin for me. Of course, I have been faithfully using it hoping that acne will go away. Apparently, outbreaks were more often. Researched on the net and realised that for the start it will be like that.

As I attended the workplan and staff development seminar, my colleagues started asking me if i've visited the dermatologist. They recommended three different ones. One is my previous dermatologist, one is unheard of and the other is a reknown one.

Felt like it's God prompting that I should do something about my face. That's because i've been whining to Him. Telling Him how inconfident i'm feeling and having a low self-esteem. I didn't want the devil to have a foothold on me anymore so I've decided to give it a try.

Guess what I tried to make appointments but two were outstationed, so I ended up going to Joyce Lim (the reknown one). Finally I went and it was so EXPENSIVE!! Cost me 277 bucks. Felt a real pinch. If I had waited, it probably won't be that ex but I just couldn't. I felt so affected by the acne. Dread them so much!!!

She said that it will take 6 mths before all is healed and i'm going to be on antibiotics for at least 6 mths. This antibiotic makes me hungry easily so can only hope that I don't end up putting more weight. In addition, my skin is going to be red and peeling for the time being. What an ugly sight!!

Really need prayers for less redness and speedy recovery. Also hope that the next visit will be cheaper.

Nevertheless, I really want to thank God for my CG members who have encouraged me after the prayer meeting on tuesday. Overall, the meeting was really good. I felt so recharged and that I could pray even longer than what I did. Seriously thank God for such an opportunity to be present for the prayer meeting as I've been missing them since I started work. Felt so deprived for so long!!