ThE BeAtiTuDeS

It's the second day since i got back to work...

yet...these two days ain't that fantastic...i would say that i did struggle through...tonnes of lesson plans and lesson preparation...i put in my best to prepare for lessons, wanting to give them the best...but yet, they are so unappreciative....all i've got from them are discipline problems...everyday when i walk out of the class, i can't help but feel disheartened...

as i look ahead, there are endless deadlines to be met...as i begin to ponder, i know that by my own strength i can never be able to tide through them all...all i really know is that i've got to live by faith and not by sight...every single day, You'r my only source of strength. Whenever my flesh says that i'm weak, You will say that I'm strong...through my own sight i can only see that many things are unachievable but through faith i know that all is possible through God...i'm really going to hold on to the rhema word...

apart from the above, i'm caught in a situation again... i really don't know how to handle....i know that i will end up being either hopeful or disappointed...regardless what the outcome will be, all i desire is for God's will to be revealed....

today really sets me thinking alot....

juz being my quiet self today...

someone who loves will indeed protect.... today i found out tt this someone went to an extent where he would rather be mistaken than letting the other party be affected by others...

3 more days before the march holidays....can't wait for it to arrive....but i know that it's going to be a time where i've to do my work...but i guess i will take time off to go blading...*haf tots of getting a new pair of blades*....n mayb drop by for the mosaic fest to watch deb fung...

hmm...west side story is going to be screened soon..wonder if there will still be seats available...but it seems like no one is interested in it....

today i caught lovers in paris on channel U...actually, i've watched the series during the holidays last year...yet watching it again makes me feel wow...tt guy is so sweet...someone who does not really know what love is and how to love someone...actually did that for her....he light up the garden with tealights and candles...and arranged a heart shaped with flowers and both of them just sat inside this heart and chat while drinking wine...so romantic rite??....

watching tt show reminded me of my desire last week where it's so tough and things seems crashing down..where i cried but noone is around...everyone just seem so occupied...at that moment i wish tt someone would lit up the place for me wif tealights...it's going to be so romantic and beautiful...seriously, i'v always loved tealights or candles...esp in times where things seems so grey...and when there's a light it just reminds me of God's love and goodness...actually, whenever i feel down or when i miss someone i would just look into the sky and zoom in to the stars...stars are just so beautiful...they light up the dark sky....

how i wish tt it will come true huh...heee....well, it can only be something tt i dream of..bcoz i'v yet to really meet tt someone who will really do such a thing for me to make me feel special and loved...but it will be such a sweet and romantic surprise...:P

hmm...this week seems better than last week...but still, not so well...how i wish tt everything will be over soon...counting down....