ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
lesson learnt
an item lost, led to a lesson learnt...
Yesterday i bought a top which i really quite liked. However, i've no idea how i've managed to lost the bag that contained the item. By the time i realised that it was out of my ownership, it was too late!! Back then, i was torn between to head back to search the places i've trampled upon or to let it go. In the end, i let it pass. At that instant, i was really exasperated and had lots of "WHY?" appearing in my head. Yet, i didn't want to head back because i just refused to want myself to contain even more disappointments if i couldn't retrieve it. Another reason was because i felt really exhausted.
Today, as i was busing back from school,i finally understood what yesterday's incident spoke of. It just reminded me that when it's lost, i can either choose to:
a)
go find it and maybe will have the chance to find it back
b)
let it go totally and believe that you will find a nicer piece
c)
go get an exact new piece but yet you know that it's different and can't replace the first
All the solutions presented are simply so tough rite? That's because it involves the most important element, emotions. However, with the right mindset these emotions can be controlled and contained.
Well, i'm using this analogy to something else that is precious and priceless. And God is simply reminding me over and over again that i've to press on and overcome all the critics and release grace...with that i will be an overcomer!!!
Yesterday i bought a top which i really quite liked. However, i've no idea how i've managed to lost the bag that contained the item. By the time i realised that it was out of my ownership, it was too late!! Back then, i was torn between to head back to search the places i've trampled upon or to let it go. In the end, i let it pass. At that instant, i was really exasperated and had lots of "WHY?" appearing in my head. Yet, i didn't want to head back because i just refused to want myself to contain even more disappointments if i couldn't retrieve it. Another reason was because i felt really exhausted.
Today, as i was busing back from school,i finally understood what yesterday's incident spoke of. It just reminded me that when it's lost, i can either choose to:
a)
go find it and maybe will have the chance to find it back
b)
let it go totally and believe that you will find a nicer piece
c)
go get an exact new piece but yet you know that it's different and can't replace the first
All the solutions presented are simply so tough rite? That's because it involves the most important element, emotions. However, with the right mindset these emotions can be controlled and contained.
Well, i'm using this analogy to something else that is precious and priceless. And God is simply reminding me over and over again that i've to press on and overcome all the critics and release grace...with that i will be an overcomer!!!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Praise You In This Storm
I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
This is indeed such a beautiful song by Casting Crowns with scripture verses quoted and it's simply the words of my heart.
Storms are times where it's the most difficult to Praise God. However, when you do it, it will be the sweetest sacrifice that you have made towards God. In addition, you're claiming your victory over the storm that had come upon you. In the midst of praising you'll feel that your mind has been renewed, your faith has increased and peace began to fall upon you.
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Yesterday's prayer meeting was awesome!!! It's extremely different from the ones i've been before. Moving in the Spirit is so powerful and it helps to bring our prayer life to a greater level. I couldn't help tearing. Mayb like what Pastor had said, those are just bottled up emotions. But one thing i really enjoyed was praising God. Before the meeting, i saw a picture of what i've long expected myself to see. Was I affected? Deep down, i knew that it was all over. It's just a little sneak of what will happen in the future and i believe that God is just preparing my heart for it. I just want to believe that by then it will have totally no impact on me. ;) Nevertheless, i want to thank God for people around me who have been encouraging and asking me to be hopeful and wait to see what God has in plan for me. It will be even better than what i could ask or think of. I'm just going to continue Praising God!!!
These past days i'm sick, throat inflamation resulting in swollen lymph nodes. The right side of my neck swelled and the right cheek close to the ear is swollen too. This brought me so much discomfort and pain. Doctor said that the nerves are affected resulting in the extreme pain that is spreading from my head to the neck. But i really thank God for partial healing. My CG laid hands and prayed for me yesterday after prayer meeting. Today, i feel much better where the pain had minimised. Going to keep on praying and trust that He is going to heal me completely. He's my Jehovah Rophe!! By His stripes i'm going to be healed!!! Of course i will want to thank this someone who's always so loving and taking care of my needs in the expense of his sleep and personal time. There's really no one else who's as sacrificial as you are. Although we're going to be separated further away from each other, you'll always be remembered bcoz you're the greatest blessing that God have placed in my life for a season n a reason. I'll continue praying that His blessings will pour forth abundantly on you.
Also, I thank God that relationships are restored. He's indeed a great reconcilator. I was totally filled with disappointment and pain the whole of last week. But I thank God for the ability to release forgiveness. I would say that all of us are at fault and through this whole incident i began to realise that i need to have a bigger heart. So i'm just going to work towards that!! God is always good, revealing things thru' every single situation that i go through. Thank You, Lord!!!
I'm just going to continue walking...holding on to the promises that He had given...For His promises are always YES and AMEN!!!
Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away.
* Mark 13:31*
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with You"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
This is indeed such a beautiful song by Casting Crowns with scripture verses quoted and it's simply the words of my heart.
Storms are times where it's the most difficult to Praise God. However, when you do it, it will be the sweetest sacrifice that you have made towards God. In addition, you're claiming your victory over the storm that had come upon you. In the midst of praising you'll feel that your mind has been renewed, your faith has increased and peace began to fall upon you.
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Yesterday's prayer meeting was awesome!!! It's extremely different from the ones i've been before. Moving in the Spirit is so powerful and it helps to bring our prayer life to a greater level. I couldn't help tearing. Mayb like what Pastor had said, those are just bottled up emotions. But one thing i really enjoyed was praising God. Before the meeting, i saw a picture of what i've long expected myself to see. Was I affected? Deep down, i knew that it was all over. It's just a little sneak of what will happen in the future and i believe that God is just preparing my heart for it. I just want to believe that by then it will have totally no impact on me. ;) Nevertheless, i want to thank God for people around me who have been encouraging and asking me to be hopeful and wait to see what God has in plan for me. It will be even better than what i could ask or think of. I'm just going to continue Praising God!!!
These past days i'm sick, throat inflamation resulting in swollen lymph nodes. The right side of my neck swelled and the right cheek close to the ear is swollen too. This brought me so much discomfort and pain. Doctor said that the nerves are affected resulting in the extreme pain that is spreading from my head to the neck. But i really thank God for partial healing. My CG laid hands and prayed for me yesterday after prayer meeting. Today, i feel much better where the pain had minimised. Going to keep on praying and trust that He is going to heal me completely. He's my Jehovah Rophe!! By His stripes i'm going to be healed!!! Of course i will want to thank this someone who's always so loving and taking care of my needs in the expense of his sleep and personal time. There's really no one else who's as sacrificial as you are. Although we're going to be separated further away from each other, you'll always be remembered bcoz you're the greatest blessing that God have placed in my life for a season n a reason. I'll continue praying that His blessings will pour forth abundantly on you.
Also, I thank God that relationships are restored. He's indeed a great reconcilator. I was totally filled with disappointment and pain the whole of last week. But I thank God for the ability to release forgiveness. I would say that all of us are at fault and through this whole incident i began to realise that i need to have a bigger heart. So i'm just going to work towards that!! God is always good, revealing things thru' every single situation that i go through. Thank You, Lord!!!
I'm just going to continue walking...holding on to the promises that He had given...For His promises are always YES and AMEN!!!
Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away.
* Mark 13:31*
Friday, May 12, 2006
Thoughts of the day
I simply dragged myself out of bed today and was almost late for school. Really thank God that yiying drove today and she gave me a lift to school. It's really kinda nice to meet up with my coursemate once again. However, time was limited so the catching up were merely few minutes.
Most of them EXCEPT me.... Got their posting
These two days i'm filled with lots of anxiety. Seriously, i really dread this feeling.
Yesterday, when i was praying over the posting God revealed that i should NOT be anxious and do not worry.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.
*Philippians 4: 6*
Well, i did made my requests to God. Now, i'll have to just wait. However, while waiting i need to rid those anxiety. I need to renew my mind!!! Must always remember that i'v His inheritance and all the promises He had given.
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Well, i'm basically still pondering over what had happened yesterday. Therefore, today i'm just more of my quiet self not wanting to talk much. I reflected over my speech. I guess many a times i do, but this time round i really feel frustrated with myself. I've tried to work at it but somehow it's still not improving. Have i tried too much? Maybe i've been relying on my strength and abilities too much, thats why i failed. I really need to have the wisdom and love to speak appropriately. Most importantly by guided by the Holy Spirit.
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Started my marathon on the korean series -> Love Story in Harvard. It's really a nice and sweet show. As usual, the casts are great eye candies as they are handsome and pretty. However, such shows are often so sweet that i can't visualise it coming to past in my life, yet only makes me want to fall in love. Begin to ponder... where is the guy? will he have the qualities that i'm looking for?
Just some X-Factors:
Compassionate, Spontaneous, Sense of Humor, Intelligent
haha..the list goes on...Of course, we both must be able to flow with each other's visions and dreams too. However, i guess what's important is:
Is the guy whom the Lord has in plan for me? Sometimes when the right guy comes at the right timing (God's timing), all else really don't matter anymore.
As for now, this guy is still beyond my sight :P
He has made everything beautiful in its time....
*Ecclesiastes 3:11*
Hence, i shall try to wait patiently for His perfect timing...:)
Most of them EXCEPT me.... Got their posting
These two days i'm filled with lots of anxiety. Seriously, i really dread this feeling.
Yesterday, when i was praying over the posting God revealed that i should NOT be anxious and do not worry.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.
*Philippians 4: 6*
Well, i did made my requests to God. Now, i'll have to just wait. However, while waiting i need to rid those anxiety. I need to renew my mind!!! Must always remember that i'v His inheritance and all the promises He had given.
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Well, i'm basically still pondering over what had happened yesterday. Therefore, today i'm just more of my quiet self not wanting to talk much. I reflected over my speech. I guess many a times i do, but this time round i really feel frustrated with myself. I've tried to work at it but somehow it's still not improving. Have i tried too much? Maybe i've been relying on my strength and abilities too much, thats why i failed. I really need to have the wisdom and love to speak appropriately. Most importantly by guided by the Holy Spirit.
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Started my marathon on the korean series -> Love Story in Harvard. It's really a nice and sweet show. As usual, the casts are great eye candies as they are handsome and pretty. However, such shows are often so sweet that i can't visualise it coming to past in my life, yet only makes me want to fall in love. Begin to ponder... where is the guy? will he have the qualities that i'm looking for?
Just some X-Factors:
Compassionate, Spontaneous, Sense of Humor, Intelligent
haha..the list goes on...Of course, we both must be able to flow with each other's visions and dreams too. However, i guess what's important is:
Is the guy whom the Lord has in plan for me? Sometimes when the right guy comes at the right timing (God's timing), all else really don't matter anymore.
As for now, this guy is still beyond my sight :P
He has made everything beautiful in its time....
*Ecclesiastes 3:11*
Hence, i shall try to wait patiently for His perfect timing...:)
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Happiness and Sadness
shall blog about the happenings for the past days first...
Saturday and Sunday:
Weekend was extremely awesome. Great CG with my ex-leader leading the cg and ex-member playing guitar for us. CG was fantastic and there was a breakthrough!! Hoping that the next coming week will be good too. Had a great time at baptism too. Guess then i was up to my mischief. :P Also thank God for healing me on sunday morny so that i could go to church and even serve in choir.
Really want to thank God for a great fren and brother. Always known him as someone who is very caring to people around. But on sunday, i realised that he was pretty sharp too. Hence he availed himself to help us with photo taking even when i was actually calling out to someone else. I guess i should really thank him for being observant and protective too. My CG leader shouted out to me to move away and the brother who was nearby just came forward and started to protect a few of us when he saw a car coming our direction and i was standing at the position where i could be knocked down.
Here's the link to the photos taken at baptism by someone else. But they are really very blur...
http://www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~mohamed2/churchphotos.htm
Monday:
I went out to watch Mission Impossible 3 in the early evening. I would overall rate this show as nice. :)
What really caught my attention most was on the part where trust came in. Trust is just so important for relationships.
In the night i had a talk with someone special and used to be precious. This someone asked if i'm really okay with whatever that is happening. I replied that i'm alright and am happy. Yet on the other end, i teared. I guess it just hurts when it comes directly from this someone? It really had been about 2 weeks since i teared over sadness. Well, it shows that this someone still cares and is protective. This person just doesn't want to put me thru' what would make me hurt. As for me, i guess i just want this person to be happy. I don't know what lies ahead but i just want to give him the blessings and i hope that by then i will be able to accept the pleasant truth without tears of sadness.
Well, through this incident, i began to realise that he's around merely for a season and a reason but never a lifetime. Nevertheless, i thank God for all the sweet memories and the footprints he left in my life and the changes he had triggered in me.
Tuesday:
I played my guitar for a pretty long time and was praying. There are simply many things on my mind and trying hard to lift my eyes from being cast down. ;)
Played tomb raider in the afternoon before heading out to meet a fren who is very dear. I was in the midst of playing when he messaged that he's about to reach bedok mrt station. Oh man, all i did was quickly rush out of the house without grooming myself. Actually on my mind i thought, he had seen me before at my lowest moment when i refused to get out of bed. Always remembered the day he came over to hall to visit just because he's very worried about me and tried hard with my roomie to persuade me to go to skool. So, i thought it wouldn't be that bad today compared to back then. :P But what really surprised me was that he couldn't recognise me. Haha... but what really made me feel good and edified was that he said that my hair colour suits me and that my hair had grown out really nicely. He's a very silly boy, coz the last time i met him was like about 3 weeks ago. However i guess it had been many mths since he last saw me in specs. hehe...:P ..He really made my day. However, i was kinda sad that i couldn't make it for steven curtis chapman concert with him. But i thank God that his girlfriend could make it on the last minute. Glad that my absence blessed both of them with a concert:) However, i wonder if it was good though...;P but i believe he will love it, coz he always likes gigs and this is a rare opportunity. Of course, not forgetting to thank Rirong for blessing us with the free tickets:P *thanks*
Wednesday ---> Today!!!
I'm glad that it's wednesday, because that means that i can go for bible study. Heee:) Last week i was caught with work that i had to give it a miss and it just didn't feel good at all. So thank God that now i'm having holidays and can avail myself for it;)
Seriously, i'm pretty bored. Mayb i should try to play maple story instead of tomb raider already. :P
Saturday and Sunday:
Weekend was extremely awesome. Great CG with my ex-leader leading the cg and ex-member playing guitar for us. CG was fantastic and there was a breakthrough!! Hoping that the next coming week will be good too. Had a great time at baptism too. Guess then i was up to my mischief. :P Also thank God for healing me on sunday morny so that i could go to church and even serve in choir.
Really want to thank God for a great fren and brother. Always known him as someone who is very caring to people around. But on sunday, i realised that he was pretty sharp too. Hence he availed himself to help us with photo taking even when i was actually calling out to someone else. I guess i should really thank him for being observant and protective too. My CG leader shouted out to me to move away and the brother who was nearby just came forward and started to protect a few of us when he saw a car coming our direction and i was standing at the position where i could be knocked down.
Here's the link to the photos taken at baptism by someone else. But they are really very blur...
http://www.comp.nus.edu.sg/~mohamed2/churchphotos.htm
Monday:
I went out to watch Mission Impossible 3 in the early evening. I would overall rate this show as nice. :)
What really caught my attention most was on the part where trust came in. Trust is just so important for relationships.
In the night i had a talk with someone special and used to be precious. This someone asked if i'm really okay with whatever that is happening. I replied that i'm alright and am happy. Yet on the other end, i teared. I guess it just hurts when it comes directly from this someone? It really had been about 2 weeks since i teared over sadness. Well, it shows that this someone still cares and is protective. This person just doesn't want to put me thru' what would make me hurt. As for me, i guess i just want this person to be happy. I don't know what lies ahead but i just want to give him the blessings and i hope that by then i will be able to accept the pleasant truth without tears of sadness.
Well, through this incident, i began to realise that he's around merely for a season and a reason but never a lifetime. Nevertheless, i thank God for all the sweet memories and the footprints he left in my life and the changes he had triggered in me.
Tuesday:
I played my guitar for a pretty long time and was praying. There are simply many things on my mind and trying hard to lift my eyes from being cast down. ;)
Played tomb raider in the afternoon before heading out to meet a fren who is very dear. I was in the midst of playing when he messaged that he's about to reach bedok mrt station. Oh man, all i did was quickly rush out of the house without grooming myself. Actually on my mind i thought, he had seen me before at my lowest moment when i refused to get out of bed. Always remembered the day he came over to hall to visit just because he's very worried about me and tried hard with my roomie to persuade me to go to skool. So, i thought it wouldn't be that bad today compared to back then. :P But what really surprised me was that he couldn't recognise me. Haha... but what really made me feel good and edified was that he said that my hair colour suits me and that my hair had grown out really nicely. He's a very silly boy, coz the last time i met him was like about 3 weeks ago. However i guess it had been many mths since he last saw me in specs. hehe...:P ..He really made my day. However, i was kinda sad that i couldn't make it for steven curtis chapman concert with him. But i thank God that his girlfriend could make it on the last minute. Glad that my absence blessed both of them with a concert:) However, i wonder if it was good though...;P but i believe he will love it, coz he always likes gigs and this is a rare opportunity. Of course, not forgetting to thank Rirong for blessing us with the free tickets:P *thanks*
Wednesday ---> Today!!!
I'm glad that it's wednesday, because that means that i can go for bible study. Heee:) Last week i was caught with work that i had to give it a miss and it just didn't feel good at all. So thank God that now i'm having holidays and can avail myself for it;)
Seriously, i'm pretty bored. Mayb i should try to play maple story instead of tomb raider already. :P
