ThE BeAtiTuDeS

This is my new specs. It took me a few hours before deciding on this as most were just too loud and trendy for me to wear to school. It's definitely not what i pictured myself to own but i guess this is what's in the trend right now. It(specky) should feel really honoured because lijun, terence and guohong went to collect it together with me after service today. ;)

My purchases today are really steep. But what's pleasing to me is that i've bought something that i've eyed few weeks back. It's an extravagant purchase but i guess it's alrite to pamper myself once in a while with something i really like. ;)

I went to catch this movie in the evening. I love it!!! The uncovering of the romance is really excellent. Go watch it!! ;)

I was so contented with this new bottle that my brother gave me months ago.

But today, the bottle cap had cracked. I couldn't comprehend what caused the crack!!! :(

*Me & Jenny*

We met during a course b4 our 4 weeks attachment. A great listener n fren. (This is the best shot we had together, the rest are even more blur :( )

*Me & Yiying*

My hall and maths tutorial mate. A fun loving gal.

*Me & Meng Song*

My practicum mate who taught the same class as me. A good helper but always suan me.

*Me & Lyndon*

He's a great friend n brother 2 me. Always standing by my side even thru the valleys. :)

*Me & Lyndon (2)*

A talented and interlectual being :P Learnt alot from him.

*Me & Caiwei*

My English tutorial mate. A helpful n caring gal. She's from SOC 2 but we only met in NIE.

*Alex, Caiwei, Me & Lester*

This is a clique of mine in NIE.

*Me, Jingwen & Yiying

Another clique of mine, the person missing in this photo is Jenny coz she left early that day.

Ex-E298 Members: Most loving sisters and brothers i've met. People whom i've spent together with these past 3 years ++.

*Lijun & Me*

My great sister of 5 years. ;)

Me & Rirong*

We tried hard to get the balloons into the picture. ;)

*Rirong & Me*

Here's the starry balloon!!

*Me & Rirong*

Rirong: Arrgghh...Why can't the red balloon float up??

*Me & Rirong*

Rirong: I'm so shy..need to hide behind the balloon. :p *Cher: like real!!*

*Me & Wanyun*

Can we eat now?

*Lijun, Shuxian & Me*

3 Sisters!!

*Lijun & Me*

This time with both flowers & balloons.

*Group Photo*

Let's all get together for a shot!!

*Me & Liyan*

Our masters graduate-- Liyan!!

*Liyan & Wanyun*

Smilez

*Lijun & Rirong*

Posing for the camera..:)

*Rirong*

What're you trying to do to my balloons?

*Rirong*

This is the most funny pose!! We all couldn't stop laughing.

*Me & Vijay*

Our soon to be Professor:)

Me with my beloved Flowers & Balloons!!

<-- Flowers from E198

Happy Me!! -->

<--I like this shot very much!!

I had lotsa attention when i stepped into this place -->

There're a few more pictures but I'm going to stop here. The uploading speed is too slow n i'm feeling sleepy.

ZZzzzzz.....

They are friends whom i've met in NUS Semester 1 (2001-2002) during my cs 1105 tutorial. ;) Time really flies so fast!!

*Me, Ryan & Cheewei*

Many are revealed and finally i understand things that i could not understand before.

I would say that:
God is good all the time!!

When someone leaves, another will be added. My very good friend is too involved in being in love that we've drifted. Apart from that, so many issues had surfaced through this period of time. Once, we used to be able to understand and accept each other. Yet, now the more time we spent together, the more unhappy we are. So afterall the space between us is good. Thats because i dread all the gossips that are flying that it hurts me so much.

Lost one good friend but found another good one. Someone who's so accepting and patient to everyone. Yet, i felt perplexed for a moment. That's because, i find it so difficult to accept that he's an accepting person such that he'll try to accommodate me. Telling me that i should just be myself. Somehow, i felt he's just too nice to be true. I used to be someone who's very expressive about my own emotions. But now i've bottled them up so much, only releasing them to God. Now, i'm trying to learn to be expressive again but in a healthy manner.

Apart from him, God also told me that He loves me just as i am and i'm loveable in His eyes.

In the past, someone had made me felt so small and being compared to.Yet, through a scenario that this someone went through with another someone i began to realise that there were unfairness to me back then. That i realised what was lacking in that person then was love and acceptance of people.

For the things that have been happening and the word that He revealed, i begin to realise it's the period of time where God is assuring me of His love. Also, He desires me to be happy and not be whom i ain't in order to feel accepted. I'm uniquely created by Him!!!

I shall now move away from individual development to my career. WOW!! It's extra challenging physically and emotionally. But i'm trusting God for this calling that He had given to me. :) Of course i do whine. haha...:P

However, there's an issue that i really don't understand why.....
An issue that only God understands. Something that i've desired and placed in my heart, but yet i still can't comprehend even till now. Now, i'm trying to let go completely and trust that God is going to do a work even in this period of uncertainty and pain. I guess all along i've struggled with letting it go 100 % that it had been fluctuating(sometimes at it's peak, yet times at it's trough). Yet God is reminding me that there's difference in placing things in His hands and taking things into my own hands.


Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
* Ecclesiastes 3:11*

So maybe i should stop asking why why why

BUT

Trust in HIM!!!!

* Morgan & Nicole taking turns to write on the card*

This is the most recent birthday card i've churned out on the nite before the celebration!! All thanks to the creativity from God!!

HaPPy BiRtHDaY, BrO ViCToR!!!