ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Friday, July 21, 2006
Some update after being in hiatus
Many are revealed and finally i understand things that i could not understand before.
I would say that:
God is good all the time!!
When someone leaves, another will be added. My very good friend is too involved in being in love that we've drifted. Apart from that, so many issues had surfaced through this period of time. Once, we used to be able to understand and accept each other. Yet, now the more time we spent together, the more unhappy we are. So afterall the space between us is good. Thats because i dread all the gossips that are flying that it hurts me so much.
Lost one good friend but found another good one. Someone who's so accepting and patient to everyone. Yet, i felt perplexed for a moment. That's because, i find it so difficult to accept that he's an accepting person such that he'll try to accommodate me. Telling me that i should just be myself. Somehow, i felt he's just too nice to be true. I used to be someone who's very expressive about my own emotions. But now i've bottled them up so much, only releasing them to God. Now, i'm trying to learn to be expressive again but in a healthy manner.
Apart from him, God also told me that He loves me just as i am and i'm loveable in His eyes.
In the past, someone had made me felt so small and being compared to.Yet, through a scenario that this someone went through with another someone i began to realise that there were unfairness to me back then. That i realised what was lacking in that person then was love and acceptance of people.
For the things that have been happening and the word that He revealed, i begin to realise it's the period of time where God is assuring me of His love. Also, He desires me to be happy and not be whom i ain't in order to feel accepted. I'm uniquely created by Him!!!
I shall now move away from individual development to my career. WOW!! It's extra challenging physically and emotionally. But i'm trusting God for this calling that He had given to me. :) Of course i do whine. haha...:P
However, there's an issue that i really don't understand why.....
An issue that only God understands. Something that i've desired and placed in my heart, but yet i still can't comprehend even till now. Now, i'm trying to let go completely and trust that God is going to do a work even in this period of uncertainty and pain. I guess all along i've struggled with letting it go 100 % that it had been fluctuating(sometimes at it's peak, yet times at it's trough). Yet God is reminding me that there's difference in placing things in His hands and taking things into my own hands.
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
* Ecclesiastes 3:11*
So maybe i should stop asking why why why
BUT
Trust in HIM!!!!
I would say that:
God is good all the time!!
When someone leaves, another will be added. My very good friend is too involved in being in love that we've drifted. Apart from that, so many issues had surfaced through this period of time. Once, we used to be able to understand and accept each other. Yet, now the more time we spent together, the more unhappy we are. So afterall the space between us is good. Thats because i dread all the gossips that are flying that it hurts me so much.
Lost one good friend but found another good one. Someone who's so accepting and patient to everyone. Yet, i felt perplexed for a moment. That's because, i find it so difficult to accept that he's an accepting person such that he'll try to accommodate me. Telling me that i should just be myself. Somehow, i felt he's just too nice to be true. I used to be someone who's very expressive about my own emotions. But now i've bottled them up so much, only releasing them to God. Now, i'm trying to learn to be expressive again but in a healthy manner.
Apart from him, God also told me that He loves me just as i am and i'm loveable in His eyes.
In the past, someone had made me felt so small and being compared to.Yet, through a scenario that this someone went through with another someone i began to realise that there were unfairness to me back then. That i realised what was lacking in that person then was love and acceptance of people.
For the things that have been happening and the word that He revealed, i begin to realise it's the period of time where God is assuring me of His love. Also, He desires me to be happy and not be whom i ain't in order to feel accepted. I'm uniquely created by Him!!!
I shall now move away from individual development to my career. WOW!! It's extra challenging physically and emotionally. But i'm trusting God for this calling that He had given to me. :) Of course i do whine. haha...:P
However, there's an issue that i really don't understand why.....
An issue that only God understands. Something that i've desired and placed in my heart, but yet i still can't comprehend even till now. Now, i'm trying to let go completely and trust that God is going to do a work even in this period of uncertainty and pain. I guess all along i've struggled with letting it go 100 % that it had been fluctuating(sometimes at it's peak, yet times at it's trough). Yet God is reminding me that there's difference in placing things in His hands and taking things into my own hands.
Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end.
* Ecclesiastes 3:11*
So maybe i should stop asking why why why
BUT
Trust in HIM!!!!
posted by Cheryl at 2:16 AM
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