ThE BeAtiTuDeS

Can't help but to say THANK YOU, Lord!!!

God really amazes me so much. When u leave everything into His hands, He will indeed fight for u. Lately, someone hurts me so so so much. If that was the past, I would really retaliate. Yet, I kept my cool and forgave coz like what Joyce Meyer preached: Hurting people hurts people. Though I forgave, I told God that I hope this person will apologise. Few days later, the person indeed apologised. Through this incident, God had shown me another aspect of love. Love protects and edifies instead of condemning the one who hurts u. It's really a choice and requires self-control not to hurt people just because you yourself are hurt too.

Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; loves does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
- 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

In a period of trials, God also revealed that I have great friends around me who met my needs. However, what amazes me is that He sent someone who does not know what I'm going through to lift me up thru an sms. This person ain't someone who is that expressive and seldom smses me. Yet, it was the exact words of encouragement that I needed. What I realise is that, when someone speaks words of condemnation, a word of encouragement could negate the effect of condemnation. This is how cool God is to me. :) He simply surprised me with people who's like an angel being there at the right moment.

His love is really never failing. We all live in an imperfect world. But what makes it worth living is the love of God. He loves and bottles every tear we cry. However, God works only when we allow Him to work

Haven't got the chance to let time freeze and take stock of my life. However, the events that have been happening these past weeks brought lotsa light to me.

Maybe what Beverly said was really true. I guess i'm someone who is very vulnerable to people dear or close to me. It seems like i can practically empathise what they are going through. Then it becomes my instinct to want to do something about it.

I will end up caring, encouraging and loving them more. Hoping that it would lift their spirits up a little, bringing a smile on their face. However, while i'm doing that I ended up facing the pain of rejections.

This is my struggle. Too much compassion and emphathy, yet when faced with rejections I would draw into my shell. I really do not know how to show the compassion and emphathy in a correct measure and not let myself be affected by others' situations.

BUT surely I know that God does not want me to be like that.

God, can you teach me to love like the way you do? Let the soulish nature in me die and let ur Spirit takeover. Teach me to use the gift that u've given to me in a most appropriate portion.

We had our teacher's day dinner at the Legends @ Fort Canning this year. The food was really bad. Thus, I ended up not really eating as I was also having gastric pain.



These are my best buddies and friends at workplace. Pretty babes with great heart I would say. Life wouldn't be so good without them there.

I initially suppose to meet someone at a special place where our first memories were created but everything was cancelled. I believe that such a reminiscence will not be possible anymore as this someone has left to another world for good, and probably won't be coming back... Or maybe years later. I suppose this person is someone who once decides to leave, would just simply vanish into the thin air without informing anyone till we realise that presence was gone. Comes and goes in a flash.

I went home and drink a packet of fresh milk, hoping I would feel better from the gastric pain. Later, I went out with Weisiang and Daniel for supper at Geylang. After that, we proceeded to Mustafa. I had a good time shopping and being amused by them. I bought the cards for the gals graduation. Weisiang got his berms. Of course, when we were about to leave, we saw some accessories. The guys bought a necklace each. Looks good on them and I think it was a good change of look. I also bought two necklaces which I really liked a lot as gifts.

After that, we went to East Coast to have ice-cream and milk-shakes. We sat on the breakwaters and talked alot till dawn. Sitting there makes me remininsce alot, sweet and bitter memories. I gazed at the stars and saw some shooting stars. I made some silly wishes but doubt it will ever come true. The sky was filled with lotsa stars but of course it's nothing compared to the magnificient view I saw in Bintan. I miss the times in Bintan....

Later in the morning, I went to my hiding place before heading home. That's my Friday night and Saturday morning...

Bintan trip was fun coz I had lotsa precious memories. Yet painful coz there are unpleasant sights.

-Snorkelling
-Jet-skiing
-Banana Boat
-Kayaking
-Playing frisbee
-Sun-tanning

these are just some of the activities I did there. Many first times and I guess the company made everything so special. I will never forget the writings on the sand and the stars in the sky. That was the most pleasant surprise i've gotten as stars are what I love to gaze at but yet in Singapore they just don't look as beautiful as it would really be. Maybe it would be more perfect if I manage to collect some seashells back from there. Yet, I didn't.

So much to say but yet I just can't express them here and can only keep it in my bottle. Looks like what I brought back was memories and not momentos.

After coming back, many things just went wrong. I really wonder if it's a trip to rest and relax to be recharged for greater things to come or it's meant to prepare me for unhappy things to come.