ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Sunday, August 26, 2007
A release of my emotions
Haven't got the chance to let time freeze and take stock of my life. However, the events that have been happening these past weeks brought lotsa light to me.
Maybe what Beverly said was really true. I guess i'm someone who is very vulnerable to people dear or close to me. It seems like i can practically empathise what they are going through. Then it becomes my instinct to want to do something about it.
I will end up caring, encouraging and loving them more. Hoping that it would lift their spirits up a little, bringing a smile on their face. However, while i'm doing that I ended up facing the pain of rejections.
This is my struggle. Too much compassion and emphathy, yet when faced with rejections I would draw into my shell. I really do not know how to show the compassion and emphathy in a correct measure and not let myself be affected by others' situations.
BUT surely I know that God does not want me to be like that.
God, can you teach me to love like the way you do? Let the soulish nature in me die and let ur Spirit takeover. Teach me to use the gift that u've given to me in a most appropriate portion.
Maybe what Beverly said was really true. I guess i'm someone who is very vulnerable to people dear or close to me. It seems like i can practically empathise what they are going through. Then it becomes my instinct to want to do something about it.
I will end up caring, encouraging and loving them more. Hoping that it would lift their spirits up a little, bringing a smile on their face. However, while i'm doing that I ended up facing the pain of rejections.
This is my struggle. Too much compassion and emphathy, yet when faced with rejections I would draw into my shell. I really do not know how to show the compassion and emphathy in a correct measure and not let myself be affected by others' situations.
BUT surely I know that God does not want me to be like that.
God, can you teach me to love like the way you do? Let the soulish nature in me die and let ur Spirit takeover. Teach me to use the gift that u've given to me in a most appropriate portion.
posted by Cheryl at 7:39 PM
2 Comments:
I learned that caring or loving someone means opening one heart to make him feel how concerned I am to him. My concerns will not be real and authentic if my heart is closed. However, the paradox is I stands getting hurt when my heart is opened. So between the choice of showing real care and not doing so to someone i care/love, I will always choose showing real care, knowing the person may hurt me if i do so.
I suppose i'm just tired so i'm slipping into my shell. It's so difficult whenever u meet people who are so unappreciative and turns around to make u the problem when the heart of the matter is the matter of the person's heart.
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