ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Searching God...
Through this time, I really have been pondering if I am really on the right track at all..I just felt that a lot of things in my life seems to have taken a great change...even i myself also don't understand myself anymore...wonder if i have become worst....
There seems to be so many questions going thru my mind every now and then. Yet i simply can't generate any answers to them at all...
As usual, there would usually be a verse that would encourage us...and this time i turned to the verse:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you a future and a hope.
---Jeremiah 29:11---
And this time for the first time, i really do not know why but i continued reading on:
Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me wih all your heart.
---Jeremiah 29:12-13---
Also, another verse:
Be still, and know that I am God
---Psalms 46:10---
I begin to realise that i have been seeking for answers and asking far too much but never listen and give God the opportunity to speak.....even when i know that I really got to be patient and wait upon the Lord....
But am i far too impatient and also wanting to know things that probably He won't want to disclose to me till His perfect timing?
Relying on my own flesh, i know that i am wearing out...just felt so physically tired everyday with tonnes of work to do.... I wish that i could have more wisdom, better time management and greater discipline to study and do my assignments...really need to have an expansion of capacity too..I believe tt only by drawing strength from God, then will it be possible...
In addition to that, I have been pondering over how could I ever breakthrough in guitar playing...I felt so stagnant for such a long time already..and I am really so dissatisfied...but how how how? How could I move on to another level??
Also, I guess I really need to learn of ways to encourage myself...
Can really onli hope in the Lord...Hoping tt breakthru will come soon....
Another late nite again..time to turn in and wake up at 7.30 again for lessons...*Sweet Dreamz*
There seems to be so many questions going thru my mind every now and then. Yet i simply can't generate any answers to them at all...
As usual, there would usually be a verse that would encourage us...and this time i turned to the verse:
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you a future and a hope.
---Jeremiah 29:11---
And this time for the first time, i really do not know why but i continued reading on:
Then you will call upon Me and go and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me wih all your heart.
---Jeremiah 29:12-13---
Also, another verse:
Be still, and know that I am God
---Psalms 46:10---
I begin to realise that i have been seeking for answers and asking far too much but never listen and give God the opportunity to speak.....even when i know that I really got to be patient and wait upon the Lord....
But am i far too impatient and also wanting to know things that probably He won't want to disclose to me till His perfect timing?
Relying on my own flesh, i know that i am wearing out...just felt so physically tired everyday with tonnes of work to do.... I wish that i could have more wisdom, better time management and greater discipline to study and do my assignments...really need to have an expansion of capacity too..I believe tt only by drawing strength from God, then will it be possible...
In addition to that, I have been pondering over how could I ever breakthrough in guitar playing...I felt so stagnant for such a long time already..and I am really so dissatisfied...but how how how? How could I move on to another level??
Also, I guess I really need to learn of ways to encourage myself...
Can really onli hope in the Lord...Hoping tt breakthru will come soon....
Another late nite again..time to turn in and wake up at 7.30 again for lessons...*Sweet Dreamz*
posted by Cheryl at 5:14 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home