ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Friday, September 02, 2005
Jus needed to release my frustrations today....
ARRRrrrrGGGGggggHHHHHHhhhhh............
I'm so fed up!!!! Nothing seems to go rite today.....
Was being locked up in a classroom in nie after lessons with 2 of my frens...juz bcoz the meeting dragged till aft 7....almost could not get out of there..and the feeling of being locked up in a room without ani lights is so scary!!!
Wanted to go for makeup for BS but my meeting ended late and couldn't make it in time for it...but there's really where i wana go..mayb the House of God has become my hiding place...I juz wana dwell in His presence and to be immersed in His words...I just simply need to draw strength from Him to continue moving on...n mayb tts why i just desire to be in His house....
I needed the illustrator cs program desperately to do some design work for my project. Tml i will be having project meeting and i can't produce what i need to..felt so frustrated..started d/l at abt 9 till now and the connection is ultra slow that it can take up to like 22++ hours to d/l 385MB of data...what's wrong?? How am i to produce what i said i would? and my presentation is just on saturday and tml i won't even have the time to finish them up...What am i to do, Lord??
MSN have been giving me problems too....i can't see my contacts online and times i can b typing but realise no one get my msg...and i need files from frens...it's so irritating..and i kept getting signed out and in....what else must go wrong huh??
I used to like that literacy module but now my interest for it had simply died down...they r suffocating us..wif tonnes of work....expecting us to produce stuff within such a short span of time...Shared book reading is suppose to be real fun but it simply is so taxing now...with so much expectations from them...also, i yet to find my books for the teaching of reading...3 different genre and i manage to find one on contemporary realistic fiction...and i am looking for one on poetry but it's out of stock....where am i suppose to come up with the 2 more books?? Huh, Lord???
What more, my maths lesson plan assignment is due on 9th sept...and i yet to start of..went to the library umpteen of times but i simply can't get my hands on the teacher's guide..it's always MIA....and i even heard tt for that level that i am doing there is no teacher' guide available..so i decided to look for a level closest to mine but tt book is always borrowed out by others...what am i to say?? that all trips made are so wasted....
today , suppose to meet some sisters from e298 for dinner and fellowship but coz of my project meeting i just can't go..i feel that the time i have is getting so so so minimal..no matter how much sleep i give up..it's still not enuff...i'm so tired physically...and my eye bags are like becoming more obvious...:(...and time i spend wif loved ones are just so little too...and i begin to wonder how can i ever set my priorities rite...
at least b4 the term break comes all these i need to get them done..even tot of going for a short trip during the break but with the assignments they r adding on to us..i can't possibly leave at all....
when can i ever have a breathing space?? I'm drowning into the water...
Lord, you said that you'r Jehovah Jireh...My Provider....Can you please let your grace be upon me and lead me thru?? I recognise by my own strength i really can't move on at all...the steps seems to be heavier and heavier...and i noe tt i can't walk this journey alone...:'(
the thing that makes me feel realli so sweet was that...my students actually messages me to wish me happy teacher's day...there simply sooo sweet...also, thanks to sihui, cousin terence and frens who wished me tt...somehow, it kinda makes me felt tt i am not forgotten by u pple...
i guess, in times like tis..it juz simply feels so ultra duper nice to have pple who cares and bring the smile to my face...thanks so much!! the encouragements reali warms my heart...and also the acts of services realli touches my heart tooo....Reali thank God for all of you...really sorry that i probably dun show tt much of appreciation on my expressions and words but in my heart i reali am moved...it's juz tt lately i am less expressive...:)
After penning these, i reali feel so much better..and of coz playing of games and the guitar reali makes alot of difference too..hehe..okie time to go read the bible and zzz loh..got lesson at 8.30 and wif project meeting included, my whole day tomorrow will be ultra packed wif no break all the way till 4.30...can onli hope tt lecture will end at 4.30 and not drag like it did last week...i have been skipping my dinner every friday bcoz of lack of time....
Can't wait to enter the house of God tomorrow...really expecting a great service again...:)
I'm so fed up!!!! Nothing seems to go rite today.....
Was being locked up in a classroom in nie after lessons with 2 of my frens...juz bcoz the meeting dragged till aft 7....almost could not get out of there..and the feeling of being locked up in a room without ani lights is so scary!!!
Wanted to go for makeup for BS but my meeting ended late and couldn't make it in time for it...but there's really where i wana go..mayb the House of God has become my hiding place...I juz wana dwell in His presence and to be immersed in His words...I just simply need to draw strength from Him to continue moving on...n mayb tts why i just desire to be in His house....
I needed the illustrator cs program desperately to do some design work for my project. Tml i will be having project meeting and i can't produce what i need to..felt so frustrated..started d/l at abt 9 till now and the connection is ultra slow that it can take up to like 22++ hours to d/l 385MB of data...what's wrong?? How am i to produce what i said i would? and my presentation is just on saturday and tml i won't even have the time to finish them up...What am i to do, Lord??
MSN have been giving me problems too....i can't see my contacts online and times i can b typing but realise no one get my msg...and i need files from frens...it's so irritating..and i kept getting signed out and in....what else must go wrong huh??
I used to like that literacy module but now my interest for it had simply died down...they r suffocating us..wif tonnes of work....expecting us to produce stuff within such a short span of time...Shared book reading is suppose to be real fun but it simply is so taxing now...with so much expectations from them...also, i yet to find my books for the teaching of reading...3 different genre and i manage to find one on contemporary realistic fiction...and i am looking for one on poetry but it's out of stock....where am i suppose to come up with the 2 more books?? Huh, Lord???
What more, my maths lesson plan assignment is due on 9th sept...and i yet to start of..went to the library umpteen of times but i simply can't get my hands on the teacher's guide..it's always MIA....and i even heard tt for that level that i am doing there is no teacher' guide available..so i decided to look for a level closest to mine but tt book is always borrowed out by others...what am i to say?? that all trips made are so wasted....
today , suppose to meet some sisters from e298 for dinner and fellowship but coz of my project meeting i just can't go..i feel that the time i have is getting so so so minimal..no matter how much sleep i give up..it's still not enuff...i'm so tired physically...and my eye bags are like becoming more obvious...:(...and time i spend wif loved ones are just so little too...and i begin to wonder how can i ever set my priorities rite...
at least b4 the term break comes all these i need to get them done..even tot of going for a short trip during the break but with the assignments they r adding on to us..i can't possibly leave at all....
when can i ever have a breathing space?? I'm drowning into the water...
Lord, you said that you'r Jehovah Jireh...My Provider....Can you please let your grace be upon me and lead me thru?? I recognise by my own strength i really can't move on at all...the steps seems to be heavier and heavier...and i noe tt i can't walk this journey alone...:'(
the thing that makes me feel realli so sweet was that...my students actually messages me to wish me happy teacher's day...there simply sooo sweet...also, thanks to sihui, cousin terence and frens who wished me tt...somehow, it kinda makes me felt tt i am not forgotten by u pple...
i guess, in times like tis..it juz simply feels so ultra duper nice to have pple who cares and bring the smile to my face...thanks so much!! the encouragements reali warms my heart...and also the acts of services realli touches my heart tooo....Reali thank God for all of you...really sorry that i probably dun show tt much of appreciation on my expressions and words but in my heart i reali am moved...it's juz tt lately i am less expressive...:)
After penning these, i reali feel so much better..and of coz playing of games and the guitar reali makes alot of difference too..hehe..okie time to go read the bible and zzz loh..got lesson at 8.30 and wif project meeting included, my whole day tomorrow will be ultra packed wif no break all the way till 4.30...can onli hope tt lecture will end at 4.30 and not drag like it did last week...i have been skipping my dinner every friday bcoz of lack of time....
Can't wait to enter the house of God tomorrow...really expecting a great service again...:)
posted by Cheryl at 4:22 PM
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