ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Friday, April 28, 2006
Recommendation
Quickly go and get this book:
BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND by Joyce Meyer
It's really awesome!! It totally blows my mind!!!
I wanted to get my hands on this book since last mth. But the first time i tried to purchase it, i was turned down by the lady at the counter as they are not opened for business at that hour. The subsequent weeks, the book was out of stock.
I was quite disappointed because no matter how much i desire to get my hands on it, i couldn't. Now, i own it on tuesday before the prayer meeting. Guess what, it was the second last book on the shelf. Later did i realise, my cg member purchased the last one.
It's really worth reading. I'm done with the first seven chapters and it already brought me so much revelations. :)
Just a little encouragement for those who are feeling down:
Misery is due to what is going on inside of you (inner thoughts) and not what is going on around you (your circumstances)
For the rest, brethen, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverance and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and loveable,whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things
* Philippians4:8*
The bible talks about the things that we should focus on. So just want to encourage you to think positive and in agreement to the plans that God have in place for you. Keep on having your mind renewed everyday and meditate on the word of the Lord. Think about what you'r thinking about and you will probably be able to locate some of the problems in your thinking.
BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND by Joyce Meyer
It's really awesome!! It totally blows my mind!!!
I wanted to get my hands on this book since last mth. But the first time i tried to purchase it, i was turned down by the lady at the counter as they are not opened for business at that hour. The subsequent weeks, the book was out of stock.
I was quite disappointed because no matter how much i desire to get my hands on it, i couldn't. Now, i own it on tuesday before the prayer meeting. Guess what, it was the second last book on the shelf. Later did i realise, my cg member purchased the last one.
It's really worth reading. I'm done with the first seven chapters and it already brought me so much revelations. :)
Just a little encouragement for those who are feeling down:
Misery is due to what is going on inside of you (inner thoughts) and not what is going on around you (your circumstances)
For the rest, brethen, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverance and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and loveable,whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things
* Philippians4:8*
The bible talks about the things that we should focus on. So just want to encourage you to think positive and in agreement to the plans that God have in place for you. Keep on having your mind renewed everyday and meditate on the word of the Lord. Think about what you'r thinking about and you will probably be able to locate some of the problems in your thinking.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
New beginning...
I guess i was really calm when i heard what he said. The truth indeed hurts, but it sets me free. It brings a closure to everything. Of course, there're alot of adaptations that needs to be made. It will be tough but i know that the ending will be sweet.
For a moment, i indeed felt really insecure and upset. But I believe that today marks a new beginning for me.
My life is going to change:
Character (Stronger, Secured, knowledgeable)
Emotions (Matured and stable)
Looks (The outer change will be accompanied together with the inner change)
Spiritual (Stronger and love God even more each day)
But forget all that -
it is nothing compared to what i am going to do.
For i am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
*Isaiah 43: 18-19*
Indeed, God had started a new thing in my life since the start of the year. I truely believe that this year will be a great year for me. A year where i will grow and change like never before.
I will always remember that God said:
" He will perform miracles that no man has seen or heard"
"He has given me a future filled with hope"
Actually it not only speak to my career but also the other areas of my life. Indeed, how i handled this whole issue was already a miracle to me.
For now, i believe that God has someone planned for me. This guy will be someone who is even better than what I could ask or imagine and he will love me lots. He will be my prince charming. :P Of course, i'll be his love too. He will love me for who i really am and dotes me lots.
I'm really hopeful and i believe that this guy will appear and sweep me off my feet. :P
Yet for now, its time to focus and set some more goals in life.
"Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need."
*Matthew 6:33*
See what it says??
The promises of God are always YES and AMEN!! So i'm claiming them.
Blown are the memories and sadness....Bcoz, LOVE is BEAUTIFUL and NOT a misery...:P
For a moment, i indeed felt really insecure and upset. But I believe that today marks a new beginning for me.
My life is going to change:
Character (Stronger, Secured, knowledgeable)
Emotions (Matured and stable)
Looks (The outer change will be accompanied together with the inner change)
Spiritual (Stronger and love God even more each day)
But forget all that -
it is nothing compared to what i am going to do.
For i am about to do something new.
See, I have already begun! Do you not see it?
*Isaiah 43: 18-19*
Indeed, God had started a new thing in my life since the start of the year. I truely believe that this year will be a great year for me. A year where i will grow and change like never before.
I will always remember that God said:
" He will perform miracles that no man has seen or heard"
"He has given me a future filled with hope"
Actually it not only speak to my career but also the other areas of my life. Indeed, how i handled this whole issue was already a miracle to me.
For now, i believe that God has someone planned for me. This guy will be someone who is even better than what I could ask or imagine and he will love me lots. He will be my prince charming. :P Of course, i'll be his love too. He will love me for who i really am and dotes me lots.
I'm really hopeful and i believe that this guy will appear and sweep me off my feet. :P
Yet for now, its time to focus and set some more goals in life.
"Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and He will give you everything you need."
*Matthew 6:33*
See what it says??
The promises of God are always YES and AMEN!! So i'm claiming them.
Blown are the memories and sadness....Bcoz, LOVE is BEAUTIFUL and NOT a misery...:P
Friday, April 21, 2006
today...
it's a real tiring but fruitful day.... it's sports meets today...n i was asked to be the photographer..hehe..one who knows nuts abt photgraphy but only love to take picture of herself...:P..but yet many said tt i look professional....but they really got to look at those pictures to validate it...hehe..coz there were onli a few nice shots...
but i had fun, hanging out with the pupils...and running around under the sun. and i got myself tanned..looked like a red lobster now..esp my nose n my shoulder blade..heee...but i'm really down this time...went to see the doctor and diagnosed me with tonsil inflammation and fever... and was asked to go on mc tml...hehe...a rest day for me but still got lotsa work to do... but i still thank God for a day of rest...
really wana thank tt special someone who brought me to mustafa to get my track pants esp i wouldn't really know what to wear today...he's so patient and sweet even when he's tired..thank God for such someone...:)..
feeling so much better after toking to a brother..bcoz i felt so confused and tied down emotionally...somehow didn't know what to do, coz i tried all ways to get an answer from the Lord..but still no matter how many books i read or sermons i listen or pray..i couldn't find a solution ....now, at least i noe what's best... it's all bcoz i'v been trying to avoid as i'm afraid to face my feelings and i ended up fooling myself all these while.....so now i've to really be very truthful about everything and face everything n not avoid anymore..coz avoiding does not make me feel better at all...difficult but i'v to press on and tide thru this season... if he could do it..i believe tt i could too..and i really dun wana this whole issue to pull me down anymore... i'v got to have the willpower to deal with everything once and for all...
but i had fun, hanging out with the pupils...and running around under the sun. and i got myself tanned..looked like a red lobster now..esp my nose n my shoulder blade..heee...but i'm really down this time...went to see the doctor and diagnosed me with tonsil inflammation and fever... and was asked to go on mc tml...hehe...a rest day for me but still got lotsa work to do... but i still thank God for a day of rest...
really wana thank tt special someone who brought me to mustafa to get my track pants esp i wouldn't really know what to wear today...he's so patient and sweet even when he's tired..thank God for such someone...:)..
feeling so much better after toking to a brother..bcoz i felt so confused and tied down emotionally...somehow didn't know what to do, coz i tried all ways to get an answer from the Lord..but still no matter how many books i read or sermons i listen or pray..i couldn't find a solution ....now, at least i noe what's best... it's all bcoz i'v been trying to avoid as i'm afraid to face my feelings and i ended up fooling myself all these while.....so now i've to really be very truthful about everything and face everything n not avoid anymore..coz avoiding does not make me feel better at all...difficult but i'v to press on and tide thru this season... if he could do it..i believe tt i could too..and i really dun wana this whole issue to pull me down anymore... i'v got to have the willpower to deal with everything once and for all...
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
blah blah blah
Currently listening to a cd that rirong blessed me with.
I was totally taken aback by the cd and the encouragement card that he did. Thanks brother, for showing ur gift of love and encouragement. It's really very sweet of you. :)
yesterday, i met up with my nie friend, lyndon...i really enjoyed the short 10 mins of catching up. It's really a rare opportunity to catch up in the midst of our hectic schedule. Although separated by distance and time, it feels like nothing have changed where we can still carry on from where we left behind the last time. :) Thank God for great relationships like this. Boy, know that the Lord is with you and u'r not alone.:)
Today was really a tiring day for me. Even my colleagues who walked past me all commented that i look tired. Indeed, i am. Now, what i really desire is a good time of rest.
Seriously i didn't know why i felt so nervous today. I felt that i'm not the usual self who feel comfortable in whatever that i do. Today, i simply felt so afraid. I guess it's because today's observation is critical to me that it cause me to add pressure on myself. I'm still trying to be more adaptable to everything that is happening in my life right now. However, this season is going to be over soon. I do feel sad....
Things didn't exactly go well today at work. But, i simply can't be bothered anymore. Look what's ahead and not what had past. Why bother to think of things that we can't change? Look forward and see what can be done better...:)
Spent some time listening to the choosing a right partner sermon by Pastor Kong. It was really insightful and hilarious. I guess, thats how good Pastor Kong is in preaching. He makes every sermon so interesting!!
Why this blog entry? eheh...that's because i can't seem to focus on my work. It's so called my final lap tomorrow. Well, a lap that is very shiong. Because, it's double preparation. So, i am relying on God that He will perform miracles again and multiply the little time that i have.
Well, after tomorrow i can finally rest and sleep a little earlier..hehe...simply can't wait for it...
I was totally taken aback by the cd and the encouragement card that he did. Thanks brother, for showing ur gift of love and encouragement. It's really very sweet of you. :)
yesterday, i met up with my nie friend, lyndon...i really enjoyed the short 10 mins of catching up. It's really a rare opportunity to catch up in the midst of our hectic schedule. Although separated by distance and time, it feels like nothing have changed where we can still carry on from where we left behind the last time. :) Thank God for great relationships like this. Boy, know that the Lord is with you and u'r not alone.:)
Today was really a tiring day for me. Even my colleagues who walked past me all commented that i look tired. Indeed, i am. Now, what i really desire is a good time of rest.
Seriously i didn't know why i felt so nervous today. I felt that i'm not the usual self who feel comfortable in whatever that i do. Today, i simply felt so afraid. I guess it's because today's observation is critical to me that it cause me to add pressure on myself. I'm still trying to be more adaptable to everything that is happening in my life right now. However, this season is going to be over soon. I do feel sad....
Things didn't exactly go well today at work. But, i simply can't be bothered anymore. Look what's ahead and not what had past. Why bother to think of things that we can't change? Look forward and see what can be done better...:)
Spent some time listening to the choosing a right partner sermon by Pastor Kong. It was really insightful and hilarious. I guess, thats how good Pastor Kong is in preaching. He makes every sermon so interesting!!
Why this blog entry? eheh...that's because i can't seem to focus on my work. It's so called my final lap tomorrow. Well, a lap that is very shiong. Because, it's double preparation. So, i am relying on God that He will perform miracles again and multiply the little time that i have.
Well, after tomorrow i can finally rest and sleep a little earlier..hehe...simply can't wait for it...
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Sweetness ;)
Yesterday night was the earliest night i've ever slept in the past 7 weeks...
I feel that God is good. In fact i had things that i need to complete for submission today. But yesterday when i came home, i slept for about 2 hours. Then went out for dinner with my friends. It was really fun. By the time i got home was about 11pm. Wanted to do some work but just too tired. So i knock out and woke up at 5.40am.
Spent 1 hour plus worshipping God and praying for some dear ones...It's really good. I felt so recharged after that. God is really good. I finished the thing that i needed to do within half an hour. Seriously, i really can't imagine how God can work through me. It was something that i just couldn't have an idea of how to complete it. Yet in half an hour it was done. This ain't the only miracle He performed for me. There are far too much that i couldn't even comprehend but be so marvelled.
Actually i was thinking that God will be unhappy that i went to chill out and slept so much yesterday. But again he actually created miracles for me. I would say that nowadays i don't feel stress like i do before and this word 'stress' ain't on my lips anymore. Why? I believe it is because my faith and trust in God through this period of tough time. In fact it is also partly due to not confessing negatively. Heee...what more? God really gave me clear mind to handle all my work which i never used to be able to do so under tight deadline.
The only thing i feel is physically tired. I've never slept so little(5 - 6 hours) everyday before for every single day. So have really been relying on His supernatural strength every single day. I feel much more disciplined to wake up early to pray too. It makes my day so much more joyful and exciting. :)
Through this period, i finally could strike a balance between rest, enjoyment and work.
Yet i'm thinking that probably now is a period that i'm not totally stretched yet...and God will still do another stretch till i reach the maximum then release and slowly stretch again....in fact it's really great pain but i shall press on because, i want to fulfil my calling. Many times i felt discouraged over what happens and i would think that who am i and what do i have to offer God. Yet God did not give up on me, He will work wonders through me and show me that through Him all things are possible. When i'm weak, He's strong!
There are much more things in my life that needs to be changed. I believe that as I submit myself to Him, He will deal with me and help purged all the impurities out. Trusting God for a changed life. :)
I'm so in love with YOU!!!
I used to seek man more than You. Finally, through this past weeks, You've showed me that my source is You. What man can't understand, You do. Man fails me but You will never! I guess many a times God is calling and drawing us, but when things are so well we will just ignore Him. But HE never gives up!! Used to wonder why if He loves me why put me through situations that i've to be so hurt. But as i looked back, those are just what i need to go through in order to grow. I really thank God for where i am right now but i'm not satisfied. I want more encounters and be more transformed.
I feel that God is good. In fact i had things that i need to complete for submission today. But yesterday when i came home, i slept for about 2 hours. Then went out for dinner with my friends. It was really fun. By the time i got home was about 11pm. Wanted to do some work but just too tired. So i knock out and woke up at 5.40am.
Spent 1 hour plus worshipping God and praying for some dear ones...It's really good. I felt so recharged after that. God is really good. I finished the thing that i needed to do within half an hour. Seriously, i really can't imagine how God can work through me. It was something that i just couldn't have an idea of how to complete it. Yet in half an hour it was done. This ain't the only miracle He performed for me. There are far too much that i couldn't even comprehend but be so marvelled.
Actually i was thinking that God will be unhappy that i went to chill out and slept so much yesterday. But again he actually created miracles for me. I would say that nowadays i don't feel stress like i do before and this word 'stress' ain't on my lips anymore. Why? I believe it is because my faith and trust in God through this period of tough time. In fact it is also partly due to not confessing negatively. Heee...what more? God really gave me clear mind to handle all my work which i never used to be able to do so under tight deadline.
The only thing i feel is physically tired. I've never slept so little(5 - 6 hours) everyday before for every single day. So have really been relying on His supernatural strength every single day. I feel much more disciplined to wake up early to pray too. It makes my day so much more joyful and exciting. :)
Through this period, i finally could strike a balance between rest, enjoyment and work.
Yet i'm thinking that probably now is a period that i'm not totally stretched yet...and God will still do another stretch till i reach the maximum then release and slowly stretch again....in fact it's really great pain but i shall press on because, i want to fulfil my calling. Many times i felt discouraged over what happens and i would think that who am i and what do i have to offer God. Yet God did not give up on me, He will work wonders through me and show me that through Him all things are possible. When i'm weak, He's strong!
There are much more things in my life that needs to be changed. I believe that as I submit myself to Him, He will deal with me and help purged all the impurities out. Trusting God for a changed life. :)
I'm so in love with YOU!!!
I used to seek man more than You. Finally, through this past weeks, You've showed me that my source is You. What man can't understand, You do. Man fails me but You will never! I guess many a times God is calling and drawing us, but when things are so well we will just ignore Him. But HE never gives up!! Used to wonder why if He loves me why put me through situations that i've to be so hurt. But as i looked back, those are just what i need to go through in order to grow. I really thank God for where i am right now but i'm not satisfied. I want more encounters and be more transformed.
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
God's fighting for me :)
The song posted right at the end of this entry is a very old song...but through this season i just happen to spot it on www.guitar4christ.com ...didn't know why but as i began to figure out how to sing and play it...it really speaks to me...about my life - past, present and future...there are indeed a few things that i really hope for but all these i've to learn to let go and let God take charge...
as i began to, i myself really feel less uptight about everything that is happening...these past weeks i've been so tired trying to fight for things i should have given totally to the Lord...grades now no longer bothers me, bcoz the main prize is still my calling. i've always been grade centred but through this whole situation that i'm put into, my mindset have totally changed...well, a great brother have been concern about my love life..so this is what i said to him, "now, i do desire a relationship but there are things that are not within my control." Bcoz, afterall i'm a girl..mayb i used to be direct but now i hide it..it's hard to guess coz the way i treat guys have been constant. So, only God knows... if he loves me and it's God's will, that guy will know what to do..else i will just carry on from here. Actually my mindset changed for relationship..why? bcoz i fall for someone at the start of the year but then along the way God showed that he's not the one. N when He did, it's not difficult to give all feelings to God and move on..coz He gives us strength and we'r more than a conqueror in Christ .so thats how i know that if it's His will, He will intercede for me... I'm simply so amazed by all the situations i've been thru' ,God showed me things i've never known before.... i'm just going to trust that i will step into greater grounds that i've never been before...that more revelations and understanding will come my way...
Just a little sneak...vengence is really of the Lord...i seriously couldn't believe it myself that finally there's a little bit of justice coming my way....this is a very sensitive issue so u will know if i tell u personally..:)
4 more weeks to go...seriously, i will really miss them...although they do make me upset but yet i enjoy being with them...the attachment and the fun we had together is really different...actually i'v the tendency to miss people...i duno why..mayb it feels nice being missed, tts why i think the person will find it nice to be missed too..
i've to tide through these two weeks of hectic schedule..and i'll be able to catch some breathe soon...:)
Here's the song:
ALL THAT I AM
ALL THAT I HAVE
I LAY THEM DOWN BEFORE YOU O LORD
ALL MY REGRETS
ALL MY ACCLAIM
THE JOY AND THE PAIN
I'M MAKING THEM YOURS
THINGS IN THE PAST, THINGS YET UNSEEN
WISHES AND DREAMS
THAT ARE YET TO COME TRUE
ALL OF MY HOPE, ALL OF MY PLANS
MY HEART AND MY HANDS
ARE LIFTED TO YOU
LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU
EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN THROUGH
USE IT FOR YOUR GLORY
LORD I OFFER MY DAYS TO YOU
LIFTING MY PRAISE TO YOU
AS A PLEASING SACRIFICE
LORD I OFFER YOU MY LIFE
WHAT CAN WE GIVE
THAT YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN
AND WHAT WE HAVE
THAT IS NOT ALREADY YOURS
ALL WE POSSESS ARE
THESE LIVES WE'RE LIVING
AND THAT'S WHAT WE GIVE TO YOU LORD
as i began to, i myself really feel less uptight about everything that is happening...these past weeks i've been so tired trying to fight for things i should have given totally to the Lord...grades now no longer bothers me, bcoz the main prize is still my calling. i've always been grade centred but through this whole situation that i'm put into, my mindset have totally changed...well, a great brother have been concern about my love life..so this is what i said to him, "now, i do desire a relationship but there are things that are not within my control." Bcoz, afterall i'm a girl..mayb i used to be direct but now i hide it..it's hard to guess coz the way i treat guys have been constant. So, only God knows... if he loves me and it's God's will, that guy will know what to do..else i will just carry on from here. Actually my mindset changed for relationship..why? bcoz i fall for someone at the start of the year but then along the way God showed that he's not the one. N when He did, it's not difficult to give all feelings to God and move on..coz He gives us strength and we'r more than a conqueror in Christ .so thats how i know that if it's His will, He will intercede for me... I'm simply so amazed by all the situations i've been thru' ,God showed me things i've never known before.... i'm just going to trust that i will step into greater grounds that i've never been before...that more revelations and understanding will come my way...
Just a little sneak...vengence is really of the Lord...i seriously couldn't believe it myself that finally there's a little bit of justice coming my way....this is a very sensitive issue so u will know if i tell u personally..:)
4 more weeks to go...seriously, i will really miss them...although they do make me upset but yet i enjoy being with them...the attachment and the fun we had together is really different...actually i'v the tendency to miss people...i duno why..mayb it feels nice being missed, tts why i think the person will find it nice to be missed too..
i've to tide through these two weeks of hectic schedule..and i'll be able to catch some breathe soon...:)
Here's the song:
ALL THAT I AM
ALL THAT I HAVE
I LAY THEM DOWN BEFORE YOU O LORD
ALL MY REGRETS
ALL MY ACCLAIM
THE JOY AND THE PAIN
I'M MAKING THEM YOURS
THINGS IN THE PAST, THINGS YET UNSEEN
WISHES AND DREAMS
THAT ARE YET TO COME TRUE
ALL OF MY HOPE, ALL OF MY PLANS
MY HEART AND MY HANDS
ARE LIFTED TO YOU
LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU
EVERYTHING I'VE BEEN THROUGH
USE IT FOR YOUR GLORY
LORD I OFFER MY DAYS TO YOU
LIFTING MY PRAISE TO YOU
AS A PLEASING SACRIFICE
LORD I OFFER YOU MY LIFE
WHAT CAN WE GIVE
THAT YOU HAVE NOT GIVEN
AND WHAT WE HAVE
THAT IS NOT ALREADY YOURS
ALL WE POSSESS ARE
THESE LIVES WE'RE LIVING
AND THAT'S WHAT WE GIVE TO YOU LORD
Sunday, April 09, 2006
totally shaken....
when will all these ever end?
i'm really so emotionally and physically drained now....
4 more weeks to go...but will i ever have to go back there again? tt place is simply so horrifying...tt i am so tortured mentally and emotionally...i will go berserk if it goes on for long...i've already reached my threshold of strongness.....
i had a dream on friday morny and was awoken by it that i couldn't go back to sleep...i felt so woken up by that dream...it kinda jerked me out of my world....i've waited long enough...am i to leave everything behind and walk forward? mayb i really should....
i'm really so emotionally and physically drained now....
4 more weeks to go...but will i ever have to go back there again? tt place is simply so horrifying...tt i am so tortured mentally and emotionally...i will go berserk if it goes on for long...i've already reached my threshold of strongness.....
i had a dream on friday morny and was awoken by it that i couldn't go back to sleep...i felt so woken up by that dream...it kinda jerked me out of my world....i've waited long enough...am i to leave everything behind and walk forward? mayb i really should....
