ThE BeAtiTuDeS

Yesterday night was the earliest night i've ever slept in the past 7 weeks...

I feel that God is good. In fact i had things that i need to complete for submission today. But yesterday when i came home, i slept for about 2 hours. Then went out for dinner with my friends. It was really fun. By the time i got home was about 11pm. Wanted to do some work but just too tired. So i knock out and woke up at 5.40am.

Spent 1 hour plus worshipping God and praying for some dear ones...It's really good. I felt so recharged after that. God is really good. I finished the thing that i needed to do within half an hour. Seriously, i really can't imagine how God can work through me. It was something that i just couldn't have an idea of how to complete it. Yet in half an hour it was done. This ain't the only miracle He performed for me. There are far too much that i couldn't even comprehend but be so marvelled.

Actually i was thinking that God will be unhappy that i went to chill out and slept so much yesterday. But again he actually created miracles for me. I would say that nowadays i don't feel stress like i do before and this word 'stress' ain't on my lips anymore. Why? I believe it is because my faith and trust in God through this period of tough time. In fact it is also partly due to not confessing negatively. Heee...what more? God really gave me clear mind to handle all my work which i never used to be able to do so under tight deadline.

The only thing i feel is physically tired. I've never slept so little(5 - 6 hours) everyday before for every single day. So have really been relying on His supernatural strength every single day. I feel much more disciplined to wake up early to pray too. It makes my day so much more joyful and exciting. :)

Through this period, i finally could strike a balance between rest, enjoyment and work.

Yet i'm thinking that probably now is a period that i'm not totally stretched yet...and God will still do another stretch till i reach the maximum then release and slowly stretch again....in fact it's really great pain but i shall press on because, i want to fulfil my calling. Many times i felt discouraged over what happens and i would think that who am i and what do i have to offer God. Yet God did not give up on me, He will work wonders through me and show me that through Him all things are possible. When i'm weak, He's strong!

There are much more things in my life that needs to be changed. I believe that as I submit myself to Him, He will deal with me and help purged all the impurities out. Trusting God for a changed life. :)

I'm so in love with YOU!!!

I used to seek man more than You. Finally, through this past weeks, You've showed me that my source is You. What man can't understand, You do. Man fails me but You will never! I guess many a times God is calling and drawing us, but when things are so well we will just ignore Him. But HE never gives up!! Used to wonder why if He loves me why put me through situations that i've to be so hurt. But as i looked back, those are just what i need to go through in order to grow. I really thank God for where i am right now but i'm not satisfied. I want more encounters and be more transformed.