ThE BeAtiTuDeS
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Tots these past few days....
It's the third day since what had happened...somehow still feeling :(....your words and actions are really too much...eva wonder how much a scar you have left in my life?? it's the worst i've felt all my life...well, i do admit that i had my faults in doing so but you'r far too much.....why do it then apologise over what you have done? eva wonder how much an impact it would bring to me when it spreads further?? you only cause stress to all of us...ever wonder how much ur harsh words had caused all of us to fear you....it just simply makes me fearful to approach you...though u'r strict, my impression of you have always been very good...till what you did to me...it made me felt totally embarrassed...n u ruin my whole day...and days to come...i wonder how i would feel when it's friday..i guess i will probably drag my feet to your class...n i can't believe it tt u'll still be there next sem...i wish tt i could change my class....:'(
one more science assignment to go and an english paper...and my days in NIE will be over for like a mth++....simply can't wait for the holz...i need a break...i need freedom....these past mths seems to have changed my life so much...
planning to go to bangkok for a trip to play sea sports and to shop..but now there's bird flu going on...How to go? To go or not to go?
suppose to study and do assignment these few days but i just can't seem to concentrate...all i did was to play bejeweled 2...highest score of '903850'...but somehow, i just wish tt you are still around to play twin bee with me...looked for you on monday nite online but u ain't around...i noe tt i could just drop an sms and ask if you can be around to play but i chose not to....
tried out dave's blades on mon nite...it's apec 7...cool...fast speed..tt i have a hard time trying to do the t-brake...hehe...feel like getting a new pair of blades...still wondering...if i should get apec 5..i noe tt once i get a new pair i will be able to catch up wif cousins and dave if i eva go blading with them..hehe...need to really practice and get better at it..but i guess i just don't dare to speed up..afraid of falling...still remember the times when i was in Primary 6 and fell while riding the bicycle and it left me wif a scar...but blading is a sport tt could make me feel refreshed....
thanx boy, if you ever read this, i'm sure you will noe tt it's you tt i'm talking about...i know tt these past few days you have been really caring and thoughful to try to call, sms and even trying to get me out of hall...but i guess its just me to push you away...well i do enjoy the times tt you were on the phone, listening...it's not tt i dun wana go to the library with you but i reali dun wana go to nie..n i know that you just simply dislike it wheneva i say that i don't wana talk to you..but tis is just me, i have a shell which i will go back into when i just want hide myself...i used to have gotten out of it bcoz of someone, but now i'm back into it again...though we started talking only about 3 weeks ago, i would say that when things are wrong, you will tend to appear..and the thing is tt i may not have told you much of what is going on..but i would say that when you are around, the atmosphere that you create for me is really so light-hearted and i just could be happy...i enjoyed the times you pick up the guitar and kept on playing...i was actually touch by that song that you played which u mentioned that it's a song tt your cell plays in UK...i know that many a times, you'r busy but yet you would set aside time to come and visit me to check if i'm alrite when i am sick...it was really sweet of you to bring plum over for both me and hongxiu..and of course i remembered times you came to study and keep me awake from my sneeziness...hehe...i would say tt you are really smart, i mean tt time, remember about the maths stuff we toked about..it came out for my test..:)...and it cost one mark which means 10% out of a 100%..hehe..coz the test is upon 10..don't have to feel tt you have let me down...mayb i find it hard to be expressive to you over the phone..but here i just wana say tt you have really done alot for me...i understand that music is something tt i felt tt it's a great priority to you..and moreover its a worship team that is coming..and you sonic edge cg is going..so all the more you should be there, boy..i would rather you set priorities on that:)..if you remembered what i told you before, i'm sure you will understand why...God should often be the centre of your life...thank you for all the time you have invested in me...and all the encouragements that you have given...i know that you'r also worried about alex...but it really seems like we can't do much but to pray for him...sometimes it makes me ponder if you ever thought how is it like to love others..remember, i told you about the 5 love languages?? well, i just wana say tt all tt you have done for friends around you have already shown that you do know how to love...n indeed i felt tt u'r quite a loving, caring and sensitive guy....n it's probably coz u'r a cat lover too..hehe...cat lovers are affectionate people...i have a partner in my science lessons...and he's a cat lover..his cat is reali so pretty..and he dresses it up and take photos...he too is very loving...always taking seat for me, ensuring that i am alrite when doing experiments...offering me sweet when i cough..actually i feel really blessed by God to have me meet you people...:)
one more science assignment to go and an english paper...and my days in NIE will be over for like a mth++....simply can't wait for the holz...i need a break...i need freedom....these past mths seems to have changed my life so much...
planning to go to bangkok for a trip to play sea sports and to shop..but now there's bird flu going on...How to go? To go or not to go?
suppose to study and do assignment these few days but i just can't seem to concentrate...all i did was to play bejeweled 2...highest score of '903850'...but somehow, i just wish tt you are still around to play twin bee with me...looked for you on monday nite online but u ain't around...i noe tt i could just drop an sms and ask if you can be around to play but i chose not to....
tried out dave's blades on mon nite...it's apec 7...cool...fast speed..tt i have a hard time trying to do the t-brake...hehe...feel like getting a new pair of blades...still wondering...if i should get apec 5..i noe tt once i get a new pair i will be able to catch up wif cousins and dave if i eva go blading with them..hehe...need to really practice and get better at it..but i guess i just don't dare to speed up..afraid of falling...still remember the times when i was in Primary 6 and fell while riding the bicycle and it left me wif a scar...but blading is a sport tt could make me feel refreshed....
thanx boy, if you ever read this, i'm sure you will noe tt it's you tt i'm talking about...i know tt these past few days you have been really caring and thoughful to try to call, sms and even trying to get me out of hall...but i guess its just me to push you away...well i do enjoy the times tt you were on the phone, listening...it's not tt i dun wana go to the library with you but i reali dun wana go to nie..n i know that you just simply dislike it wheneva i say that i don't wana talk to you..but tis is just me, i have a shell which i will go back into when i just want hide myself...i used to have gotten out of it bcoz of someone, but now i'm back into it again...though we started talking only about 3 weeks ago, i would say that when things are wrong, you will tend to appear..and the thing is tt i may not have told you much of what is going on..but i would say that when you are around, the atmosphere that you create for me is really so light-hearted and i just could be happy...i enjoyed the times you pick up the guitar and kept on playing...i was actually touch by that song that you played which u mentioned that it's a song tt your cell plays in UK...i know that many a times, you'r busy but yet you would set aside time to come and visit me to check if i'm alrite when i am sick...it was really sweet of you to bring plum over for both me and hongxiu..and of course i remembered times you came to study and keep me awake from my sneeziness...hehe...i would say tt you are really smart, i mean tt time, remember about the maths stuff we toked about..it came out for my test..:)...and it cost one mark which means 10% out of a 100%..hehe..coz the test is upon 10..don't have to feel tt you have let me down...mayb i find it hard to be expressive to you over the phone..but here i just wana say tt you have really done alot for me...i understand that music is something tt i felt tt it's a great priority to you..and moreover its a worship team that is coming..and you sonic edge cg is going..so all the more you should be there, boy..i would rather you set priorities on that:)..if you remembered what i told you before, i'm sure you will understand why...God should often be the centre of your life...thank you for all the time you have invested in me...and all the encouragements that you have given...i know that you'r also worried about alex...but it really seems like we can't do much but to pray for him...sometimes it makes me ponder if you ever thought how is it like to love others..remember, i told you about the 5 love languages?? well, i just wana say tt all tt you have done for friends around you have already shown that you do know how to love...n indeed i felt tt u'r quite a loving, caring and sensitive guy....n it's probably coz u'r a cat lover too..hehe...cat lovers are affectionate people...i have a partner in my science lessons...and he's a cat lover..his cat is reali so pretty..and he dresses it up and take photos...he too is very loving...always taking seat for me, ensuring that i am alrite when doing experiments...offering me sweet when i cough..actually i feel really blessed by God to have me meet you people...:)
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